magdalene express

the ugly self truth ...i'm getting better at it

I am so sick of the cold that I actually tried to check the weather network for a month's worth of weather in advance. Yeah, it doesn't exist, so on I go with the fantasy of lopping the groundhog's head off for deceiving me. That little ...or rather oversized rat.

As of late I've been focusing on tolerating the cruelty of job boredom. The promise and goal to achieve job security is what drives me. I've decided that because everything outside of my job is fairly unstable, I best stay monogamous to the corporation and lay low because benefits sounds like a good thing. A plus in my life with relatively minimal emotional complication.

Yes, my relationship is forever tormenting me. I can't even place what it is now. Why do I need to be constantly overanalyzing things, perpetually re-examining every little detail, reiterating every profundity, reasoning logic vs. irrationality...tormeting myself with obvious dysfunction.

Nowadays, I've been inverting a lot of my patterns, figuring I have serious issues. One being infidelity.

posted by mira @ 5:46 PM