magdalene express

the long awaited offer

So after putting in 6 months with the corporation, I finally catch wind of the news that there's an offer in process.

My bossinmidlifecrisis calls me into his office and gives me the heads up and then he buckles down and tells me what they're going to offer and I.. wanted to gag. I was appalled. So disgusted in fact that after the initial gag factor, I wanted to cry. One of those spontaneous eruptions into a fit of frustrated tears. That didn't happen. Of course. As usual, I maintained this ridiculously professional level of neutrality and expressed my disagreement.

"o.k., well. I don't agree with the salary. Here are my reasons. ..."

What did I want to say? Try this,
"You F*cker!!!! """
"Pay me what I'm goddam worth!!!!"

But naturally, that wouldn't have flied.

They're going to see if they can get me some more dollars which frankly couldn't make that much of a difference at this point bc the initial offer is beyond bad. However, after [emotionally - cough] rationalizing the circumstances, I do like the corporation and I've put enough time and heart into it not to turn away now. Pension couldn't hurt. I've made strategic progress in politics and like the friends that I've made. This of course knowing full well that any random day, the corporation could hazardously announce they're chopping and screw me where the sun don't shine. Which wouldn't surpise me. Life can be amusingly cruel and unfortunately predictable that way.

Anyway, I bought the bat of my dreams. (For intruder attack purposes) A medium sized black 33" aluminum - a real sleek panther. I came home with my prize bat anxious to show it off to Yer. 'Yer, who needs a man when there's this!!!' D taught me some self defense manouevers so I'm good to go. Mind you, I mentioned I was perfectly fine swinging wildly until I connect. He, mister marshal arts from the momentum school of thought didn't think so. So the lesson went embarassingly fine.

A lot and not a lot of things have happened in the past six months. A lot of ups and downs, and thankfully still in love with the same man.

I've been missing the company of my girlfriends. Miriam recently moved out on her own. She graduated and now, well, she'll probably be getting hitched to her high school sweetheart next. Might I add, I think it's a mistake waiting to happen, but oh yes, please marry him.

Me, happy is as happy does. For now. :-)

posted by mira @ 11:00 AM